in a world of speculation.


I remember the first time I heard Lana read this poem, I had a moment I could best describe as a euphoric paralysis. From that moment, I knew I had to use the song in one of my videos.

I had the oppertunity to travel with Dior to Grasse (South of France), to visit the Jasmine Harvest that is home to their beautiful perfume J’adore, as well as Domaine de Manon- where this video was mainly shot. After a short day in Grasse, I flew to Paris for the Dior show during fashion week. Unforgettable, unrivaled and unfathomably grateful.

Thank you to everybody at Dior & Dior Beauty, I am forever grateful for believing and trusting in me.

mtv vma’s red carpet.

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As per usual: I get the news that I’m walking a red carpet, I get excited, I start planning, I think “eh, I’ll figure it out”, I don’t, I have 24 hours left and I go mad trying to get everything sorted.

Lo and behold why I always end up at Zimmermann when shopping for events, and why they never fail me.

I woke up at 7am, waved my hair with a straightening iron as we did when we were kids, carefully did my makeup and drove off, a little too caffeinated, a little too understated for how long it took me to do my makeup. Bydie posted my red carpet makeup and noted that I chose a “natural look”, which is ironic because it took me three hours to master.

Dress: Zimmermann | Nude sock boots: Tony Bianco | Earrings: Luv AJ

summer favorites video.

Why I left New York City   ⋆    A feminist rant  ⋆   My “healthy” ice cream obsession  ⋆  Nail and beauty supplements that actually work ⋆ My LED light facials I do at home ⋆ Books you need to read, like today. ⋆ More weird rambles.
★⋆ things that have changed my life ⋆★